There’s a huge possibility I’m going to see my first crush in a wedding today. I never wanted to go and I after I figured this out I’am even more reluctant. It’s not like I have a choice, my mom would kill me if I said no. I’ve always had issues with weddings.. they make me sad knowing my mom sees this for me in the future. I’am going crazy right now, I haven’t seen her for years and the thought of meeting her there gives me butterflies.. not the good kind.. the I wanna’ puke kind. She messed me up so bad.